[playlist:i'll never gonna leave your side]

this is where i'm really leaving you. i didnt mean it. a second chance given to both of us.a man can lose its mind. living wid this pain. i just hope i never lose my mind. i hopei wont lose this breathe the open door to this life.

::you::
i never want to leave your side. but i have to.now.i tried so hard to make things the same.but when things seem to be okay already. i have to take my leave now.this is not my will. but i am left wif no choice tad my father gave me.maybe i should be thankful tad he didnt do anything towards you at all.i'm sorry fer not giving you a chance earlier.made you suffer so much fer me.i never loved someone so truely so much.but maybe cos of this i can say tad love has let me down. i've lost every reason to smile and wake up in the morning.sigh.i know i cant heal the broken pieces of your heart.cos i cant heal a injured bird when i'm injured here to.i drop you down from the happiness tad you wanted.how i wish you will know how am i feeling now.if i can change this, i would. but sadly i cant at all. i want to and i tried.it's all my fault tad things become like tad.though we always quarrel, i never stopped loving you at all.though there were times i wanted to give up, but love pull me thru. i always love you.i will always miss you. i will always remeber the times we had.

[playlist: i'll never gonna leave your side]

a song tad is really redundant fer me now at the moment.no mood to study. but later i will try. cos i have to.sigh. all i can do is sigh i guess. tad is wad i am capable of doing.pretty useless ah?i've been waking up in the middle of the nites these few days. had to calm myself down to sleep again.sigh.practically calm myself by staring at that 3 very lonely stars on my ceiling.but tad didnt help.memories crashed the gates within my mind.not going to think bout it anymore.maybe tad's the best way fer denial.but tad dreadful room has tons of memories tad can kill me.but i got back to sleep. wearing a pullover so i wont feel cold.

i need to be humane again. i need to feel tears streaming down my cheek. i need to feel the pain to allow me to be humane again. i need to fill tad my heart is not hollow and finds it's way back home to me.

i was wrong.really wrong.wrong in wad i believed.wrong in how i lived my life.but this is a path without any turning back. this is how i chose my life to be. i made my decision and i have learnt to stick to it.so it's nother fault but mine. so i can b classified as the one tad let her down and let love down. cos i dun believe in it anymore.

i dun deserve her love. is just tad heaven took pity in me and let me had a taste of it.

still.i wanna say thanks to her fer letting me know wad is love and baby,bro,nuer,mummiee and the rest tad took care of me when i've fell and broke my wings.

i dun think i can see the daylight tomorrow.i dun think i will be able to see smiling faces of me again.maybe i wouldnt open my eyes tomorrow.just rem tad i love you all.

I"LL NEVER GONNA LEAVE YOUR SIDE

I feel like a song without the words
A man without a soul
A bird without its wings
A heart without a home
I feel like a knight without a sword
The sky without the sun
Cause you are the one

I feel like a ship beneath the waves
A child who's lost its way
A door without a key
A face without a name
I feel like a breath without the air
And everyday's the same since you've gone away

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
And I miss you everyday, yeah, yeah, yeah

And I'm never gonna leave your side
And I'm never gonna leave your side again
Still holding on, girl, I won't let you go
Cause when I'm lying in your arms
I know I'm home

They tell me that a man can lose his mind
Living in the pain
Recalling times gone by
And crying in the rain
You know I've wasted half the time
And I'm on my knees again
Till you come to me, yeah

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
And I miss you everyday, yeah-eh, yeah

And I'm never gonna leave your side
And I'm never gonna leave your side again
Still holding on, girl, I won't let you go
I'll lay my head against your heart
I know I'm home
I know I'm home
I know I'm home

And I'm never gonna leave your side (gonna be your side)
And I'm never (never) gonna leave your side (your side) again
Still holding on (holding on) girl, I won't let you go
Cause when I'm lying in your arms
I know I'm home



ps://but it's all gone sadly