[playlist: angels brought me here]

you are a miracle in my life.. and i know it is angels tad brought you here..

okay.. today is sports day!!! haas.. and i had fun... screaming my lungs out due to cheer but although to the much screaming .. catherine still came in last.. expected but.... disappointing.. and marie house is the CHAMP fer cheerleading and runner up fer overall house CHAMP... wow... not bad wad.. tad's my dear's house.. had fun.. dear ran fer her 4 x100 m ... you did well :) hmmm.. hees... mummiee was at the stadium and i saw daddy wearing some jap summer uniform. haas.. cutie! hees.. okay i'll kana smack fer saying tad.. *run away and hide behind my dear*

den we headed to sentosa to tan.. hmmm... i am burnt and i hate the tan i have noe.. hate it hate it hate it hate it so so so so so much ... cos it is really ugly.. *pray* i hope it will go off soon.. it not.. cries... really cries lorz... it is burnt.. cos i wad like lying down there when my dear went to bathe and the rest [ daddiee wei,dee,geralynn] were in the shade eating and munching and talking away... den i lie till it is like super comfortable until i dun want to move at all.. was almost dozing off till dee came.. talked a little den... hmmm...dear came and say if i sun tan somemore i will be be a fried chicken! ah... i heard tad.. * give you a peck on your cheek* i am not fried at all.. i am burnt! really burnt and i hate it alot... alot... so ualy.. got so many colour tone lorz... not many but.. hmmm.. two.. or three..my face is burnt too! ah... hmm.. and i only found out when i was in the toliet... now i really found out why singapoare needs so so much water cos... cos... there are people tad exisit in this world tad takes gallons of water to bathe and were shouting across till my skin were like burning.. den here comes two hot babes in the eyes of daddiee and uncle.. den mayeb if they could drool .. they would... haas.. after all the wash up... i went back first.. seeing my dear sitting at the mat looking at the vast sea.. she picked up a coin and have it to me as a lucking coin.. will keep it and treasure it... *muacks*we went to get this tatoo and i got one too!! ah... dee and me [the passives] are on my hips ,we have the lesbian sign and the bungs had their names in all creative manner.. dear has a "JOVEN" on her back.. daddiee has a "RAVEN" on her ankle and geraldlynn has a "KAYEN" on her hips. so United ah... hmmm... anyway my head wad like splitting on the way there and on the way back.. it was hurting like mad.. felt as if it was going to explode... and my dear was really sweet to carry my bag fer me.. * thanks sweetie* *muacks*

.:: was just thinking bout it::.
i duno wad can i say... it seem like every of your moves affects and touched my soul. everything feels like a dream. so real yet so unreal. cant explain the feeling. i have to thank my lucky stars fer you. fer bring you into my life. i was looking at the jigsaw pendant with the engraved words.. i teared cos wad the words are. i used to dream to be someone else and the person is someone that i love alot. this world have proven me wrong tad this doesnt exsist at all.tough fate can be cruel enough to play wid me but due to your presence even fate and my heart had to give way to your tenderness. see you so worried fer me today cos of my splitting headache actually shows me tad i really do matter.. tad was wad i felt fer the past 3 months. something tad can be ables me to feel so much fer.. i duno how to put in words cos feelings cant be really fully expressed but made known to someone you want to let her hear. every hug tad i hug to you, my heart speaks something.. something so unknown to this cold world and something tad we know. tad is love tad i have towards you plus the feelings attributed. i have never stop thanking God fer you as each day passes.. never been so thankful before. never had this feeling of seeing someone 247 and want to see her more... never had this feeling of missing someone till tears start to fall... and you gave me to ablilty to feel so much .. you may not know bout tad but it is wad you gave me when you said the 1st "i love you." and it is special to me. and i will always remember it. thanks so much.. you are really my dear.. someone close to my heart...words can be deceptive but i know tad my feelings are not cos my heart aches to see you in pain,misery. my heart leaps wid you when you smile , when you have a victory or even when you are really happy.

[playlist: angels brought me here]

my dream came true right infront of you...

it is late! and i gonna say this i am stinky and hot!!! lalala.. here come's fer the update.. my tailbone was hurting really badly.. but still can bear wid the pain la.. yupp. my dear had really bad sore throat and all she do is eep quiet fer the past two days!!hmm.. but now she is feeling better le.. yupp tad's good news..

today went to town.. hmm... had a bad start.. cos daddy was sad.. i made the really wrong move and i am sorry. heard wad you have been saying in the cab and i hope you are feeling better.. no one can take you away fron the family. no one would let you go. i know you wouldnt believe it but you know deep in you tad we wouldnt let go of you. cos you are a impt part in this family. feel like a really bad daughter in law ya. still a daughter. same same. but after tad things seem to lightened up.. had fun walking around and fooling around as in playing around... yupp.. we took family pic and hmm.. i am like still the shortest..-pouts- it is just not in the genes fer me to grow tall... it's okay i am happy this way! *lets out a smile* the pics are nice!! haas.
guess i wanna scan it in!! when i have time.. mummy! take care of your ankle kies..hope you will feel better.. daddy.. hmmm... you ah!! dun think so much le.. we are all here... and yupp.. the highlight of the day!! my daddy and mummy caught a butterfly!!

and not forgetting my beloved dear!
"f you chld see wad i see.you're the answer to my prayers...if you chld feel the tenderness i feel..."

hmm.. tomorrow awaits.. a big day ya?? fer me.. cos i have 2 tests... no la.. tomorrow is our 3rd month.. time passes really fast...3rd month le.. den horz.. i guess tad this month is really a hrad month fer both of us.. cos i was like major pmsing and you had to take all frm me.. when you dun have too.. sorry my dear... i thank you cos you didnt regarded me as an irritating burden but love me even more.. and care me even more.. you pull up when i fell.. i was thinking bout it one night... how much i have to thank God fer you.. no one ever know how gratefull i am to have you. looking back i really thank God tad He brought you here. along wid your heart and accepting who i am . very little people in the world would experience wad i have in the within. though only a gain smile it is seem tad it can give me the strength in this long run of this life's journey. ---- a day without your love is liek a day without life. but a day wid your love gives me strength and hope to live by---- tad is how great and influence you have on me. you taught me to get up when i fall... without you wad will i be now? the girl tad still bottles up and scribble on my table all the pain.. the girl tad hated herself.. you changed it all... in all. you changed the fate of mine.. and lastly.. something important is the element of this relationship is your heart. without your heart.. there certainly wouldnt have 'us' at all and i will still live in the world of mine which the storm is never ending.. i love you. this 3 words never come easy fer both of us.. after all we haev been through. but i wanna say i love you.

[playlist:too serious too soon]

*take me wid you fer your heart will bleed; each time i miss you*

today.. i went to church.. surprise!SuRprIsE! hmm.. yupp.. anyway i didnt understand any part of it.. -tad's bad- anyway... i left after the service but sadly i din get to meet her:( -tad's even bad- anyway... den i went home.. haas.. on my way.. saw dis dolphin figurine and this mug tad remind me of her :( -i am the gurl tad flood the world wid my tears- haas.. talking to nuer.. and we are talking bout her... saying she look cute to in her class pic in the year book.. really wad.. tad's my dear.. she haven reply my msg yet ... YET den den... i wanna cries... *whines* tad is like even worse... sigh... -cries-

hmmm.. my father is sick.. aww. he lock himself in his room. ultra grumpy. ultra moody. my brother the same too. thoght bout things today. sunday seem to be like my thinking day. thought bout wad life brings to me and wad life puts me through. in this life i have been through s rough patch. life is like never ending of troubles.. n also have good times...rah. i duno i shall continue another day. bleahs!

pretty depressed now. cos when i asked her whether she got miss me not. a straight 'NO' came out. how can a 'NO' be so straight forwarded and came out. sigh. nvm. :(