[playlist:stay the same]

addicted to this song.. mayeb in a way.. it tells me to be just who i am.. and be just who i am..

.: mummiee:.
read your blog.and you duno how concern we all are fer you. wad does a goodbye mean? a goodbye means tad you can juts leave us like tad.? you are the soul and you will always be.wad is it going back to your shell? a shell? to isolate yourself.you know tad it doesnt do any good to you. no one said tad we dun believe tad we missed you.i missed you so much when you were away. remember? memories came back and i tag your blog?..? why allow to make yourself feel so insignificant? why? mummiee you are a person tad you have loads of confidence in wad you do.. why?why? why become like this.. i know tad circumstances allow you to become like this.. why disappear frm us? remember how badly i was down.. you was dere fer me. the least i could do is to be dere fer you. if you still regard me as you nu er. look mummiee, you're wounded and if you are not going to do anything bout it and runaway. things would eb worst. we are all here. why not just let us help you? i duno was is going thru your mind. cos i duno wad really happen to you. i duno how you feel? i duno wad are you going to do next. but i know tad you can do something to bridge tad gap dat is between us...sigh.. i duno la..

.:dear:.
you are currently online too. yea? haas. hmm.. look at the bitbit..[tad the name i called the rabbit] hmm.. now i got xiao mao and bitbit to see when i miss you.though they dun look like you at all. but thanks dear. *muacks* i love you.. a warmth of your hug brightens my dear. your presence chased away my frowns. i love you.

[playlist: stay the same]

was msging dear.. den half way no reply.. hmm... i'm ringing her now.. duno.. this darling dear of mine is tired..guess she have slept/doze off.. rang her twice.. but she did not answer.. guess she is sleeping..

today...

something is wrong wid me...

became so guai...

did study at mac.. was at mac wid dear and nu er. maybe it is because of the results i got i guess.

got my ca papers back.

flunk maths, a/cs badly. when i say badly..

it is really bad..

like damn bad..

duno la.

got geog paper back..

was happy fer a while ..

cos i top the class.

got english paper back...

border line fail..

duno.

seem pulled down by my marks..

but it's okay..

i'll work harder ya..??

[playlist:wish]

i duno wad to say..

read someone's blog...

let me say this..

i am having mixed feeling whether to cry or to think if it is real feelings?

just by hearing the song..

hmm... maybe dat expresses the feeling within someone..

i duno wad to say...

speechless..

read it..

and actually teared..

dun ask me why... cos i duno...

hmm.. regain my emotions.. duno wad's wid me.. read it and i started thinking.. tad is wad bout instrumental music and nights..see how they link.. they make people think..

hmmm.. i duno...

maybe just a time to say.. i'm sorry fer all i've done... fer all the things i failed to do..
the times when i brought disappointments den achievements. the things tad i can do but all i did was regret. all the things i wanted to do but was put aside. and all the heartbreaking moments

dear, it is not the matter of not trying not to make me cry.dun say sorry. shhh.dun say sorry. i duno want to heard any bit anymore. it not the matter of controlling your temper. just be who you are. i duno how much heartbreaking things i've done. but i know tad the last quarrel we had. i still keep the regret in me. it was so heartbreaking fer you. the same goes to me. i made you cry too.all i want is a smile from within. all i want you to know is tad i love you.

[playlist: at the beginning]

*word/words of the day: home alone*

actually not home alone ... home alone wid my brother... ah.. and i dun like it at all.. bleahs.. early in the morning... early early in the morning....

i woke up in the morning at 10 am.

woke up in a shock..

shocked frm a dream..

dreamt tad my brother..

oh.. man...

my brother again...

oh well...

he created a turmoil in my room..

everything was in a mess...

big caos ...

all the things in my room was like in the mess...

den went to washed up.. [~duh~]

msged my dear but... she only replied only a while ago...

and my bro just ask me to shut up cos i'm talking on the phone wid my dear now...

she is on the way fer her tution..

.:yesterday:.

woke up at 6.30am...

went to school...

told tad father of mine tad i need to reach school at 7.30am..

but he was mad.. woke me up at 6 am...

den i was lying in my bed.. lie and lie on the bad.. refuse to get up...

nvm.. reached school at 7am...

suppose to meet nu er at 7.15am...

but den... she is late.. *hints as usual*

went fer chem..

lesson ended at 9.30 to 9.45am..

around there... lalala.. hmmm....

den went home...

decided to give the english course a miss.. cos i'm too tired...

reached home at 10.30+++..

immediatly hogged onto my bed..

and slept and woke up...

slept and woke up...

till my dear came to my place..

took a pretty long time to dress up...

cos i had a dinner going on...

damn...

felt weird waring like tad to town...

was on heels the whole day..

~ahh~

den.... bought my skirt...

yay...

pretty happy...

nu er say tad it is sweet la... so yupp...

den..

went to dinner...

pretty screwed..

dun wanna go into the details...

well.. like this day was fulled wid harrassments by guys.. *smacks in the face*

::today::
going to stay at home...

self organised a crash course fer me to do my homework finish...

well...

i swear...

if i can kill my brother.. i will...

definatly will...

cos ...

cant he like buy his own fbt shorts??

mad...

now i have to buy fer him...

dad even ask me to help him lorz..

so tomorrow i have to buy it fer him..

RETARDED EVER CHILDISH BROTHER! + a USELESS

only shorts also cannot buy himeself...

gonna kill him...

maybe i ended up not even buying it fer him...

waste if my transport fare..

damn...

such a SPOILT BRAT...

not saying tad i aint one is someways...

but this is like GOSH.. too much le..

sigh...

better go off...

i have loads of work waitin fer me to do la....

*dear*
if you think tad i dun have you in my mind... you're wrong.. hees.. cos you have been running through my mind.. many many times.. have always been on the run..
iMu*