[playlist: at the beginning/ stay the same]

just woke up in the afternoon at bout 340 plus plus.. really tired and drench out of energy.. so i was exception to be a pig taf wants to sleep.. *yawns* guess maybe i blog finidh i'll go to ZzzZzZ land..

hmm.. me update the days in the mission days ... haas.. dear* and nu er* came over to stay and witness the up raging of a world war wid tad ever childish brother wid the ever loving him only dad and the ever so poor thing maid tad he scolds bout almost everything and anything down on this earth..yupp.. den that ever childish brother ran out of the house wid he big bag and say he dun wanna come back.. but he is back.. though not i can be bitter towards my bro and dad. but i still cried.. maybe cos of the concept of wad i want bout a family is peace. like wad dad say, ' in this family just mind your own business.' den just mind your business.. so saddening to have such a family..

hmmm.. den mission day was okay... like wad can i say ah... cried alot... told myself tad i dun wanna cry. but ended up i did... so i guess it is just a bottle- ful.. hmm.. my tear bank is overflooding... lalalala.... really made me think alot.. mission day..isnt this wad it is suppose to be?..? where we all really think bout things in life..as they say tad treasure in the things tad happen in life.

den we are suppose to write to the people tad i want to appreciate and want to thanks. but ended up i wrote one and i cry like mad.. hmm.. never write to my dear.. hmmm... actually hor.. i wrote only half way.. pass it to you when i see ya... so dun say you jeolous... dun dun.. hmmm.. must write nice nice ma...

hmmm... sigh.. gee.. gosh.. think the word tad suits me now is still sigh.. i'm sighing. why? cos... i'm missin' her i'm missin' her i'm missin' her i'm missin' her i'm missin' her i'm missin' her i'm missin' her i'm missin' her i'm missin' her i'm missin' her i'm missin' her i'm missin' her i'm missin' her i'm missin' her i'm missin' her i'm missin' her ... sixteen i'm missin' her. but it is more den dat. i could flood the screen with the 3 words.. hmmm.. sigh.. got to see her like 247 fer two days... well.. better then nothing.. but still... how i wish.. how i wish..hmmm... how i wish...

seesh... my eye lids are closing again...tad's how tired i'm.. ah... hmm..dear dear.. nu er..i had a good time.. thanks... hope you did too..

went down to monks.. hmmm.. cool... yupp... they paint the walls white.. installed more new lights. become more stricter in the entry of the club.. had fun dancing thought bro n peeps were not going cos they were like sayin that they are coming.. but ended up not.. den i saw them there..gossh!! hmm. dear danced well... [ so dun say you dun how to dance.. cos you can!] nu er.. dun have to say la... hmm.. do yur thing while you listen to music.. haas...

nu er.. remember letting go is never easy.. know you miss her and you could only miss her in your heart.. and you just dun wanna let out the pain you have within.. just by wad yu wrote on the piece of heart... tells wad tad you are cramped up inside.. dun tell me and your daddy tad you're okay dat you are not very sad.. but in fact you're hurt.. by not sayin makes us worry more...cos you're reaction was so weird... esp when you really love someone...stay the way you are... cry if you want..we are all here to lend you the shoulder... dere are better people out dere..

at the beginning:

We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me
I was going to find you
Unexpected
What you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming
How our dreams would come true
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

Life is a road
And I want to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there
When the world stops turning
I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep going on....
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road and I wanna going
Love is river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you.

[playlist:at the beginning]

heard this song... yupp at mission day.. nice .. really nice.. heard this song and i thought from my dear.. aww..

today mission day wasnt nice... hmmm... so draggy...

8 hours of love sick..
8 hours of missing her...
8 hours of her voice within my mid. [ actually almost everyday]
8 hours of waiting fer her msgs..
8 hours of wondering wad she is doing...
8 hours of wondering how is she feeling..
8 hours of not seeing her at all..
8 hours of me wearing her pull -over..
8 hours of wanting the time to tick past fast so i can meet her..

tmr it will be more 9 hours.. really... gosh.. how am i suppose to survive?? i'll be in noveana and she will be in school.. how interesting this is.. spilt us into two groups..group 1 n group 2.. and my dear is in group 1.. n i'm in group 2.. sigh.. aday of in conection wid my inner feelings.. maybe tmr.. i'll cry due to i miss her alot .. not cos i'm sad..

[playlist: say goodbye]

why this song again? nope not fer me but fer someone to someone.

why? today my mei wasnt okay.came to my class the back door and all i saw was a girl tearing while listening to her discman. inmediately as i went out.. my heart shattered to see her like this. no one can describe the tears tad flowed out and how i felt when i saw those tears of her flowing. as i wiped her tears my heart breaks piece by piece. i cant do anything all i can do is to wipe her tears away from her cheek. but the tears in her heart i cant wipe.i din not even sit down to see her n see her sob.she's sick n tired of her life. but i cant do anything. all she is in now is self denial. i duno wad can i do to give her the pull to let her stand up. i want to pull her up. but tad is if she want to have tad pull.if not guess i've failed as a fren.

nuer* i'm sorry.very sorry..sorry bout wad happen..you get wad i mean..mummieeis here fer you.

ifeelsocrampedup.commentsarethrashing.butiguessishalljustkeepittomyself.
cossomeonecloseinmyheartwillbestuckinthemiddle.bitchboutme.
dunleaveherstuckinthemiddle.

[playlist:toxic]

*have the sudden urge of listening to this song*

i seem to be stuck at home...
like... ahh..
i hate the way i cant see you when i miss you...
i miss you..
really miss you..
miss you to the extent tad i see you in my dreams..
dun like the feeling.
how i wish you are by my side every moment in my life..
all i can do is let out a sigh and hope to see you..

hmmm.. was up at 9.30..
came online and was searching fer a new template fer a new blog. found something damn seet..
spent time editing it..
and when i preview it..
it is totally screwed up..
so i've to be back on my quest on searching fer nice layout.

now.. now.. i'm waithing fer my dear's mother to come back..
den she would know if she can go out later..
i'll be here waiting fer her news.

let me update:::
this term ca .. i can say tad i'm mentally prepared fer the worst.. [ though i know tad i wouldnt do until tad bad..] jusy want to be mentally prepared fer any shock..

hmm.. holidays are coming...
oh man.. holiday rawks.. it means dat i can go out wid my dear longerbut i guess.. i would have lessons packed too..
ugh.. esp sat.. guess wad..
i have chem in the morning. [ tad yeo insist of having lessons when we say we're have course later frm 10 to 3]
following is the english course till 3 in the afternoon.

the teachers still think we aint pack enough..
too packed tilll i dun have a space to even breathe.
lalala...

now now...it is currntly 1.45pm.. and i'm still on the com.. guess... my father is irritated wid all the typing sound and my songs..
ah ha...
know he know how irrtating my bro is when he plays my com late at night..
and i've decided to not cut my hair till it is back to normal..
like damn.. my hair is taking very long to grow.. very long... a really very long time
to grow..
seesh... do dey have any hair song tad makes hair grow faster?[jokin]
kies... being retarded in my blog.. yeah.. guess it is my mind tad was getting over the age of my mind..
i miss her..